Workin The Way

I don't understand much
But I do feel right

I don't need much
But I do get some

I don't ask much
But I get more

A happy day is when you have all in one time, what you want, what you dream about, what you fight for. Is like heaven on earth isn't  it? It will never happen... Or might happen later on in the real heaven. Sometimes, many times we just have to cry out then get what we want. We pressed the eyes to pop the tears, we waste effort to have result. Once again , is it what we should believe in?about the results?NO.

One time I cried... with thousands regrets  mistakes. I was begging for the mercy from the Creator. Hope all my sins will fade away. It won't. It just written that clear. But Allah give me the way how to erase, how to fix. The word is how .... not what to erase. Means... the process is much more important than the results. Results are good. But How is the form of "Mechanism-WORK". And a human literally consider as human by work, effort and thinking. That's what make human honorable than the other creature.

So let's think.... how to, how to how to... better than what will I get?
 relax.... Heaven is not cheap. Is expensive as expensive the effort to have it.

" longing for the best effort, with heavenly on earth reward "

about my heart in between some paths

Its damn difficult. Let's try to be the best. Do the right thing after messed up things. The rest Allah let do it. I will try my best.

Like I know what will happen after all this, but the believe , faith will always in my heart. Mistakes is needed to be the experience. So I will learn. So lets do some song to keep hold on. I will make it true.

Military Speaking

I was in line of queue in bank. Try to save my time by reading book than I come over to the teller desk. 396, that my number the teller had told. But after I wait behind the teller, come another man to wait also. It silly, we have the same number, which there is only one machine printed out. But both our ticket are same. The teller begin panic , she asked me to loose my turn over him, but the man said "how possible you skip a number? If in Changi Airport you should be missed... This country needs military touch.." . The man kept saying even tough the teller already overcome the situation, by handling both of us.

No body's fault. Its mistake. Waiting inline no one like it. So be respectful to the customer by quick action and doing the to handle situation in keep cold. Tough some people is always be reactive instead of ACTIVE. Such annoying for me, he talk keep talking after the teller serve him, yes his protest is accepted, but could you see the teller try to comfort you. I might be luck don't heard the man said loud and high tone. I must be become contra with him if he did it.

To control ourself to be not to reactive sometimes its hard. I did have high tone when I called a waitress in quiet customer restaurant because they make us wait until 10 minutes to be served. And we were hungry at that time. Control our self is just the biggest lesson everyday, not to be burst out or too impulsive like fireworks:P
 It takes military discpline for our self, military speaking : obey the rule- to get in control.

Last Man Standing

Couple more hours... the 1432 years of Islamic Lunar Month of Ramadhan will go. As usual, how the world goes without Ramadhan. Still mad world. Still the old world without some changes. Let me make the change. At last for my self. Last year Ramadhan, I had the lessons, today's Ramadhan, I earned bigger lessons. Each year in my Ramadhan, it will make progress. It will make my heart melt and realize how human is nothing without the fear to the creator.

Last hours in this Ramadhan, I get the chances, in life: big jobs, solid friends, unforgettable moments, closer life to be in love with Allah's grace and many more. I believe, the spirit to have good deeds in Ramadhan, I will always try to keep. I want to be the last man standing, through all the struggling, keep the good deeds in Ramadhan, do it in every time of my life pass by.

When we don't know in what second we will stop living, in what day we will stop breathing, in what situation will we have in our life, all we can do be the best last man that standing in his own life. Time is killing, so we should rushing to doing all the best. Don't think about the ending, Allah see the process, how we struggling, till our last standing. Ramadhan is our field to step in to the next month of fighting.Amin

C Konstan

Image copied from : Steven Pinker's photos of ape Cod I / blue sky sailboat



Pulang dari memorandum perjuangan bangsa palestina, merenungi bersama seorang sahabat baru keberadaan para ikhwah yang kolaps terkena kikisan zaman.

Luar biasa... Awalnya kecewa pada beberapa pejuang Din yang berjibaku waktu kuliah dulu, bertutur tentang itu sudah menggiring pada sederetan rangkaian kisah nyata pada teman-teman lain yang resign dari dunia harakah.

Adalah seorang akhwat dulu, menjadi muslimah yang aktif dalam keorganisasiaan kampus, namun tak lama ia menjadi pejuang Din lain?
Ada pula sepasang suami istri ikhwah yang awalnya menikah sebagai ikhwah, namun kini mereka berubah ... menjadi yang biasa saja pada perjuangan.
Temanku berkomentar lebih baik saya yang C dalam berIslam tapi konstan? C konstan memang cukup tapi tidak sehebat A, dan itulah tujuannya lebih baik dari C.

Hakikatnyakan menjadi seorang pejuang yang nota bene meneruskan sejarah Islam serta turut berperan dalam rangkaian peristiwa sejarah lebih mulia. Lebih menyakitkan dan banyak tantangan memamng betul. Tapi janganlah lihat luka dan kepedihan yang akan diterima, lihatlah kesenangan surga yang dijanjikan kelak, jika kita terus berjuang samapi mati nanti.
Janganlah menyerah pada trend gaya hidup atau kekerdilan menerimahidayah yang langka diberikan. Hidayah yang mahalitu harus diperjuangkan samapi titik darah penghabisan. Ini bukan slogan tapi janji kita sejak kita menyentuh sebuah kehangatan liqoat, kekuatan ukhuwah dalam keIslaman, kedekatan bersyariat bersama dalam keasingan latar belakang yang berbeda, keindahan berjuang dalam mencapai jannah.

Hak dan batil selulu beriringan, hingga akhir hayat manusia dan bumi semesta. Namun kita memilih jalan yang mana untuk kita perjuangan bersama. Bukan berjuang sendiri mencari kebenaran hidup dan menshalihkan orang lain dalam rimba dunia yang keji pada kemanusiaan. Bersama dengan para ikhwah yang berbeda harakah pun harus teteap beriringan. Agar diraih kesejatiaan hidup. Bukan Sekedar tahu apa itu Islam, itupun dalam masa lalu.

Where you did you go , I miss you so... my brother and sister that has change. Please come back... to our destination.