Tuesday, June 21, 2011

On the Bench, Under the Tree

Could you just sit here
Listening to what I say
Laughing at my fool
Thinking of my ideas
Supporting my hope

Please do not walk away
Sharing the toughts
Revealing all secrets
Planting those dream
Building similar wishes

Hear me,
Don't kill me with the blind and silent
Ask me,
Don't wait for me in awkward timeless
Do me a favor
Come in to me

I believe in the time
Where I state I am in love with
Because I am ready to take all
Even the tears or laughter
Together, forever

Soul


jiwa ini rapuh
bagai daun yang akan jatuh mati
seketika pun dapat meletup-letup menghebat
kadang melemah juga terkapar
bagaimana kuhadapi
telaga dalam sanubari
kadang kulihat kejujuran baik sebening kaca
bisa juga kusaksikan topeng-topeng kaca nan indah
jiwa yang rapuh
semudah angin bertiup ke arah manapun
seringan debu berterbangan di semua persinggahan
ku mohon
berikan kekuatan diri yang akan selalu kokoh
ku mohon
biarkan jiwa ini bercahaya
bersih memancarkan keIlahian yang terpupuk rapi
jiwa yang selalu mengembara mencari
kekuatan
keteraturan
kebahagiaan

 Taken from Oldies Friendsters Blog
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Thursday, June 16, 2011

Forever

Deep inside, I know where I will land my old time. Deep down in my heart, I know who should I thanked to about what happen today in my life. Seriously I am grateful for anything that happen everyday. Bad day, worst day is just day, its my life. Deeply I know I create my life, with Allah's will. No one could change our destiny but us.

Trust your life, it won't ended in sad drama scene. Because you build your life every night in your dream and you publish it every morning you wake up. It is more than a morning glory or night scene. It is your life. Where later there will always a judgment what had you filled your life with.

Share forever, dream forever, gain forever and you will never be lost forever, in your life.

"the moment I am thank you to Allah for the surprises today. I wish, I am grateful"

Party

My dream scene, seems need to be noted.

Its crowded. Seems a  birthday party. With many socialite people but stand in same level because of the person. I don't know much about the person. I do impressed bit  because the work this person do. I couldn't reach the person during the party, just enjoy the food, story about it. Where is it? Familiar place, with unknown place. But the star in the party was happy I am present tough I am bit neglected.

I am talking too much with other guests ---might be because my work. But again this party made me know about the level in life. I am not their level, I just part of the party host life.
Then I leave the party, with many stories to be written as usual. I am learning again.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

The Ocean

First time in my mind to imagine backpacking as solo traveler. I am gonna do it. I desperately want to have some date with shark. Honestly, I miss the ocean...............

Blindly walk
Through the  path as in the park
brightest light
bring up some cool sight

freeze in seeing
breeze in smelling
mix up like no other

the waving coconut tree
the parking silently turtle
the touching wind

let me tell you about the ocean
how its beautiful as heaven
calm like the warm night
surprising as the rain in the sun
just leave the earth
fly your life to the ocean

Friday, June 10, 2011

My (not) Simple Happiness

Zzzzzuitzwit.... planning, then zwwitzwit changing ffiuh...The plan for that changing, but not the results.

Me and my friends made breakthrough within a week plan. Its not perfect, really awful but it was challenging  experience that we made trip with 13 special children, ride in angkot (google it!) in hot sunny day(27 degree Celcius) to a clinic. Masha Allah, they moved all around, they showed their bright orange cloth ----just like Jakarta football team costume color, their carried their own bag in angkot and did the important journey. A tough rough journey which may change their quality of life in the jungle world.

The experience that made them sweaty, thirsty, some are cranky, but they made it. Alhamdulillah.... We had chance to scratch bit of color in this life experience. Dear mom and dad, look at their happy faces in the simple trip. They sight seeing in their curiosity, they still not changing much as you expect, but they had learn through this trip. They got the excitement as if you give them big present.

We worked hard, think hard only for made situation for them to learn. But we proud of it, we love it, all paid well when we saw their smile during the trip. Its nothing maybe, but for us its a simple happiness. Giving simple happiness is not need spot light in the middle of crowd or make us famous, but it stay deep down in the heart.

In the next ride, we steal another moment with them, to give another simple happiness. Start your simple happiness by giving chance to the special needs children to be accepted not to be an awkward person in the middle of society. Smile to them not to stare them.

Just like a professor said in her movie character
"I am Temple Grandin. I am autistic"
but the women who just met her at the shop who looking at her scared face of an automatic door, commented,
"Oooh, my son is artistic."

Communicate to them with your humanistic heart, not your only sight:))
-after my tough half day with super team, in our special school with special kids-

Tuesday, June 07, 2011

Kembang Harapan

Bukan nama SD, bukan Taman Kanak Kanak apalagi panti sosial. Ini gemuruh rasa hati.... Alah. Bukan penyakit hati tapi kumpulan rasa di hati. Atas semua doa yang dipinta dan dipanjatkan oleh bibir dan hati secara khusyu dan kadang pilu, realita hari ini begitu membuat diri sangat berharap dan kian berkembang.


Keinginan yang lama diduga dan dipintal jadi cita cita rasanya akan jadi realita masa depan dalam waktu dekat. Sungguh luar biasa, cara ajaib yang tak pernah disukai, malah jadi perngantar menuju kerajaan realita. Kerajaan yang bukan penuh drama tapi dengan semangat dan tentu saja harapan. Kerajaan yang diisi kembang kebersyukuran, kembang pelajaran, kembang pengabdian dan kembang semangat untuk kerajaan kehidupan yang sementara.


Siapapun yang berharap sama seperti kembang ku, akan selalu menginginkan cerita bahagia, bukan hati nan pilu. Berkuasa dalam kerajaan hidup yang penuh rasa cita, tanpa ragu atau kecewa. Karena semua yang diidamkan dalam kerajaan hidup ini adalah apa yang dipikirkan dan didoakan setiap detik. Maka tak layak jika kerajaan tak dibentengi dengan cahaya surga juga pedoman langit: iman.


Satu hari ditemani pada realita indah, suka yang aneh, galau yang senantiasa dinanti. Waktu mendadak jadi abadi, ucapan menjadi berarti dari detik ke detik. Allah, jika inilah sebuah garis takdir, biarkan ia melintang dengan indah di atas kaki kaki yang berpijak pada kebimbangan. Biarkan hati menuai rasa alamiah nan indah. Biarkan buaian kebahagiaan membelai. Biarkan semangat ini tak luntur untuk melengkapkan setengah agama. Dia untuk ku dari Mu. Begitukah? Amin ya mujibassailin.

Sunday, June 05, 2011

Count Up

Each day the burden or tasks seems never stop. If you do feel you just want to be usual guy, relax, calm in your daily life, including work to the people surround you, you could. You could be just plain yogurt. Somehow, someway, Allah increase those people up to the highest level, for those who feel life is just more than being relax each day, " no problems at all "and stay in comfort zone.

From the very beginning of our lives we had start the competition. Full of struggle our dad's sperm tried to reach the mom's gold ovum.Its big competition with more than 1000 sperms which also struggle. Not only that the way is not that easy as you seen in the movie, many layers should the sperm trough along the way to reach the ovum. Again, its not need a relax calm usual situation. Its a work, hard work. Smart work and needs Allah's will in it. That's our basic assets in doing the life.

The moment stay in so plain usual time is easy to get. You can create just easy as easy you leave crying child that sudden whining out in the middle of  crowded place. But do you really want to leave crying child just like that? Don't you feel responsible  if your self get knowledge and power to make the child feel better? No, right, your heart won't let it happen. Your heart will choose any effort to make the crying stop, tough its hard situation or unplanned situation.

We just can't let any part of hard situation that killing or stressed. We only could to change the situation. Then count up what will happen the next. Never ask an easy life, because that's not what we live for. We may ask the strength to control life to be easier than less value life. If Allah will always give present in hard situation, why should we leave it? We can face it and never ask why me to had this difficult situation. Beneath under your concious you are a chosen hero to fight it.Just be patient.

when I feel down I know Allah won't let me down

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